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April Showers Bring Renewed Senses

I had to take a break.  I have so many projects, hopes, dreams, realities and commitments that something had to give.  I kind of simplified to an extreme to stretch, grow and renew; boy does it feel good.

I still have a million projects but I feel like I can manage more since I’ve reconnected with myself and my family.  I’ve made a major life decision to pursue a change – a pretty drastic one.  I’ll hint that I plan to work for myself, my family and my passions instead of “the man”.  But, more on this to come as it all unfolds.

With the coming of spring I’ve started to chisel away at one of my most important goals for myself this year.  That goal was to simplify our lives.  Physically de-cluttering for 15 minutes a day in one room has changed my life drastically.  As boxes get unpacked (yes, nearly a year after we moved into our home), items get recycled/donated, while others get priced out for a large family yard sale I’m coordinating I can feel the heaviness lifting little by little.

We’ve finally started to jive into a solid family routine so I can breathe a sigh of relief knowing that it’s not so much on me anymore.  My husband always did try to be helpful and was/is a wonderful dad and husband BUT we butt heads a lot.  I know I suffered from the elusive “mommy burnout” from time to time here and we’ve been working on creating a more balanced household and life.

So, that’s my short and sweet little update on me.  How are you these days?  Are you simplifying your life in any way and how has it impacted your life?

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The Epic Battles: Balance and Laundry

 

Finding life balance is a constant struggle we all face.  Everyday we’re told [by someone, maybe ourselves] that we need to accomplish more, consume less, keep up with the Jones’, be all we can be, parent more, stop helicopter-parenting, keep a clean home, stop wasting time cleaning, simplify our lives, buy the newest gadget, take care of ourselves, give selflessly, do more more more more more more….but remember, do less less less less less.

Exhausting.

Some days I feel like I have my world under control.  I feel accomplished, loved, loving, and helpful and that generally my life is the way it was meant to be.  On these wondrous days I usually have 0-2 loads of laundry in the queue waiting to get loaded into the machine. 

The other days I feel like I can never get ahead, never be good enough, never be myself, never take care of myself let alone my family and my laundry is in piles throughout the house taunting me.  Coincidence?

Most people will say to take time for yourself and you will find the balance that you need to preserver; I’m telling you that most people are full of it.  People dish this out but putting it into practice takes effort, something that a lot of us struggle with.

To help myself find balance I’ve decided to make a shift and make a plan of action.  I need to discover why I’m unhappy with myself.  Being unhappy is a hard thing to admit and own up to, actually.  I’m not unhappy because I’m not skinny enough, not the best wife, not the best mother; although, sure, being better and skinny might be nice.

I challenged myself to discover myself alone.  I am a mother, I am a wife, I am a worker, I am all of these things but they do not define me.  They are simply part of who I became due to my situations in life and because I lacked a plan.  I realize now that when I became a wife and thereafter a mother I didn’t know what I truly wanted out of life and therefore who I am right now often feels forced. 

Oh, cry me a river, right? 

Sometimes I don’t understand why I can’t be happy and I feel like my life is all out of wack because I know I have it pretty good.  But, I feel so stale because I never let myself out.  I never took the time to really discover what makes me who I am, what makes me tick, what keeps me going.  My kid does, my husband does, and these are fantastic parts of who I’ve become but really, who am I?

Today I’m just trying to catch up on my laundry, keep the loads balanced like my life, while reminding myself to be true.  Even though I have responsibilities, duties and I’m expected to do certain things I still need to remember who I am aside from it all.

Who are you?  How do you define yourself?  How do you balance your life and laundry?

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Snow, snow, snow, snow.

Ok, so I’ve been slacking on the blogging front after that awesome giveaway I had. Sometimes life just gets crazy, other things take priority, and I get lazy! But, this past week has been H-E-C-T-I-C. My main job is as a buyer for the SE region of the states but I’m located up in Wisconsin, for those of you not in the know. Did you hear about The Snowcopalypse that came barreling through here!? It was insane.

But, since we knew it was coming Monday & Tuesday I had to go into hyperdrive trying to get caught up on work to leave early Tuesday and then have Wednesday off for our impeeding doom. Here’s what it looked like for those of you that didn’t experience the most amazing snowfall I’ve EVER SEEN.

My husband poucing his way to our garage...

Our house... we have a garage under our house on the left hand side that is MIA.

My husband bringing the neighbor some gas so he can snowblow himself out the rest of the way.

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Ch ch ch ch Changes….

Did you see that I made some goals this year for myself?  Wellllll, I’ve done the whole one step forward, two steps back dealio -kinda. 

On the finance front I’m really making some headway!  I’ve setup my ING

J in the new year standing tall

account (and scored 50 big ones!), I’ve automated everything that I possibly can plus now I have a separate account for our groceries, my gas and my spending money.  I don’t even look at my other account that pays all our bills (ok, I peek) or touch the pot so I can’t overspend out of it!  I had this terrible habit of seeing all these dollars and being all ohhhh but I have so many so I can spend $3 here, $6 there….NO MORE!

Then I went on a cleaning escapade this past week.  I organized and cleaned J’s room and closet.  I cleaned up all the Christmas decorations (except the lights on the house – A’s job for sure) and I’ve gone through the toys to scale down after the toy explosion.  Not bad for a couple weeks into the New Year, I must say.

Plus I’ve been writing more, I have an open house Saturday night with Diaper Parties, I’ve crochet 3 hats, and I’ve been spending more time with family members.  Overall I’m heading in the right direction here…

BUT, my soda habit is really spiraling out of control.  I have this thing for Coke and it started during my pregnancy.  I had one craving and one craving only: Coca Cola Classic.  It’s my downfall and I thought not buying it would help me and then the vending machines started to taunt me.  BAD.  We all have our dirty little habits, right?  Or is that just me!?

I see it this way, if I keep making excuses for why I fail giving something up then I’m just not ready to give it up.  It’s like smoking or drinking, right? 

So, how are you doing on your goals for yourself this year?

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So this is the New Year…

I just have to say that I love that song and every New Year I sing it to myself.  I’ve decided to make some resolutions for myself, if you will.  I like to think of them more as tweaks and plans to help me enjoy life more. 

One of my absolute favorite quotes is:

“In a world where you can be anything be yourself.” 

Well, I haven’t felt like I’ve been being myself.  I feel like I’m stuck in a cycle of making excuses and some days I see myself being more bitter than happy which is never a good thing.  I find myself trapped in what ifs, pity and sometimes resentment.  It’s not a good fit for me and my family. 

This year I resolve to teach myself that I am perfect, my family is perfect and our situation(s) with life are indeed perfect. 

To help myself I outlined some goals and here is the reason for all of this…

SIMPLIFY

Our home

_ Clean and organize home office

_ Clean and organize front porch into play center

_ Clean and organize basement

_ Create craft center in basement

Our finances

_ Automate ALL of our bills

_ Setup ING online savings

  1. Emergency Fund
  2. Tattoo
  3. Camera

_ Cut back on thoughtless/impulse spending

_ Eliminate half our debts (not including mortgage)

IMPROVE/DEVELOP CAREER

Write, read and share more

_ Monthly freelance article(s)

_ 2-3 blog posts per week

Take a class (or classes)

_ Communication/Writing

_ Marketing

_ Design

_ Programming

Grow Diaper Parties business

_ One party per month

_ One expo per year

_ Monthly guest posting for promotion

HAVE FUN

_Craft more (in organized craft center!)

_Get tattoo (with ING savings!)

_Do more activities with the family

LIVE HEALTHY

_Limit soda to one a week

_Walk more (especially with J)

_Laugh more, love more, be present, be authentic 🙂

I’m sure I’ll come back to add, delete and move things around. But, it’s a start. I don’t resolve to do everything at once and I don’t even know if I’ll accomplish everything that I “want” because life always has different plans that come up.

My number one goal for myself in 2011 is NO MORE EXCUSES for not living and enjoying the life that I currently have. No more what ifs only what is

Do you have any resolutions or goals for yourself?  Why did you decide on your resolution/goal?  How do you plan on accomplishing it/them?

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Giving Thanks – A Little Late

‘Tis the season for ‘giving thanks’, stuffing our faces, awkward family gatherings, watching your ‘p’s & q’s’, and getting up super early for the deals, right? That’s all I thought about holidays for years and years. I’d just get through them and when they’re done no more family for a whole year!

For the record, it isn’t my family that I’m avoiding and it’s not that I’m not thankful. I do want to spend time with my family and I miss my family often. It’s really the awkwardness, pain and pressure I feel being around my family with my mother during the holidays.

I’m being vague here so let me just say that my mom is the drunk of the family. She’s not one of those funny drunks, either. She’s either crying, being mean, telling an inappropriate story at an inappropriate time, yelling to be heard above everyone, giving a piece of her mind (and it’s not usually a nice or constructive piece) when no one asked, or she just starts making things up.

Baby J & Cousin A w/ Grandpa C

Anyway, aside from my crazy mom we had a great Thanksgiving double feature celebration this year. First, we had dinner at noon with A’s family – which I’m still weird around. It’s just that I don’t do hugs, I suck at random chit chat, I’m socially awkward and I don’t really know his family members well. I’ll get better at it over the years, I hope. But, it was nice and also really funny to have the 11 month old screaming (literally) in her booster seat over how delicious her turkey was 🙂

Dinner at my aunt’s house was at three and over an hour away from our first celebration. I was really excited to go to my aunt’s this year because some members of my family haven’t met our daughter yet. My extended family is amazing, though. We each wrote three things we were thankful for, put them in a jar and took out three things to read off throughout dinner. My cousins each read either a poem, story or song about thanksgiving which was great.  I really wish that we weren’t hours apart so I could spend more time with my aunt, uncle and cousins because they’re all hilarious and fun.

Having a child made me realize and I’ve really learned that this time of year isn’t something you should just try to get through like I used to think. This year I’m really thankful for my life and everything in my life. Sure, the holidays can be a little awkward and family members embarrass you, but I also realized that I am my own person.  I’m not my mother – I’m just a product of her.  So, when she’s drunk and being herself I can be thankful that she’s still well and with us.  Even if she the family drunk. 

I’m thankful for my daughter, who is so full of life and filling my world with joy.

I’m thankful for my husband who can see through the cranky and know-it-all that I am and still love me deeply (even on the bad days). He takes care of us and I don’t show him nearly enough thanks for everything that he does.

I’m thankful for our family’s health, our home, our annoying yet faithful pets, and a steady flow of income even if some days we’d like to quit our jobs.

This year I hope to start some great family traditions, follow along with old family traditions and to start teaching our daughter how to give in the spirit of giving not out of feelings of obligation.

I did get up at 6:00am to go shopping with my sister and my daughter in tow on Black Friday, though. It’s the consumer in me, I guess, just trying to save a buck or two. At least the shopping is done and I only have a couple more gifts left to craft.

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