A lot of people would (and do) call me crazy for making this action step I’m about to take. I’m about to take a leap of faith into the unknown and figure things out as we go. I have plans but I don’t like to make them set in stone. I have back up (a bit, only, kinda) to help make this transition easier and I have a support group making this all a little easier.
Friday, May 20th, I will be giving my formal resignation letter and my two-week notice to my full time employer. The scariest thing about the whole plan is that I do need income to supplement my husband’s so we can actually afford to eat but it’s not like my plan is to sit around staying at J all day. Oh no, not at all.
I want to wake up rested and see that cute little squishy face smiling up at me instead of getting jostled awake by my husband while my daughter is having her early morning nursing at 6am. Being told over and over I need to shower, stop, get in the shower, Sara WAKE UP. I won’t miss the way I start my mornings as they are now, that’s for sure.
I will start my day with a list of to-dos for household, time with J, meals, business and family fun. I’ll spend my day completing tasks by priority of importance and not just what I can cram in at the end of a busy work day when we pull in the drive at 6:30pm. All while being more present to one of my favorite (and missed) people in the world; my daughter, J.
I will take action and start living a life for tomorrow instead of just living day to day.
It’s scary to go into the unknown but when I look back… back to when she was 2 months old and I really made the decision to go back to work I remember why I went back. It was the worry. The worry that we needed more, we needed a house, we needed our cars, we needed more “stuff” and we worried about paying our bills, worried about having fun doing what we love and making more time for everything. Do you know where we are today? Still worrying… still living day to day and worrying about all that crap. You know what we haven’t done? Taken action to pursue what truly will bring balance and happiness to our lives.
Some will call me crazy, some will call me stupid and some will think that I’m brilliant. I know my daughter will, I know my husband is supporting this decision and I know I have friends and family that have my back. So, here I go. I’m taking that step to getting un-stuck. I firmly proclaim that from this day forth I will live with intention, take action with abandon and use my skills to their fullest potential instead of feeling trapped in a job and resenting it.
What action steps have you taken lately or are you planning on taking? Are you scared (but, a good scared), like me?